Home again, home again, Jiggedy jig!

We're back....

We've not been away, as such, but we've been back in hospital. Niblet got a strange version of impetigo, and ended up needing IV antibiotics.... I'm not 100% convinced that was what he had, but he's on the mend and seems to be responding well to the antibiotics. Fingers crossed that he carries on improving!

I had so many blog post ideas to do, that haven't been posted... it's been radio silence. Sorry about that!

I was meant to go back to school for our INSET (training) days on Monday, but being with Niblet in hospital made that somewhat impossible.... I'll have to catch up on what I missed when I go in on Friday.

Tea for Two Ten
Last week, there was a bank holiday on the Monday, and my husband invited some of his friends over for tea and cakes.... I hadn't realised that there would be 9 people, one of which was very anti-cake! I had fun baking, but very little time - only just over an hour, and I still had Niblet to look after, so if you want some quick cake ideas, read on!

My first bake was a classic scone... I used an old recipe my Mum gave me, which she got from Good Food, which a few alterations to make it suitable.

Simple Sultana Scones
350g self-raising flour , plus more for dusting
¼ tsp salt (I left this out to make it baby-friendly)
1 tsp baking powder
45g Pure Olive / Sunflower marg
40g Trex vegetable shortening
3 tbsp caster sugar
175ml milk (I used rice milk) with 1 tsp cider vinegar added
1 tsp vanilla extract
1 big handful sultanas (or other dried fruit)

1. Heat oven to 220C/fan 200C/gas 7. Tip the flour into a large bowl with the salt and baking powder, then mix. Add the fats, then rub in with your fingers until the mix looks like fine crumbs. Stir in the sugar. Add the sultanas.
2. In a jug, mix the milk, the cider vinegar and the vanilla and set aside. You can warm it to body temperature, which is meant to help the rise, but I didn't bother.
3. Make a well in the dry mix, then add the liquid and combine it quickly with a cutlery knife - it will seem pretty wet at first. Scatter some flour onto the work surface and tip the dough out. Dredge the dough and your hands with a little more flour, then pat into a round about 4cm deep.
4. Take a 5cm cutter (smooth-edged cutters tend to cut more cleanly, giving a better rise) and dip it into some flour. Plunge into the dough, then repeat until you have four scones. By this point you'll probably need to press what's left of the dough back into a round to cut out another four. Brush the tops with a little more milk, then carefully place onto a baking tray.
5. Bake for 10 mins until risen and golden on the top. Eat just warm or cold on the day of baking, generously topped with jam. If freezing, freeze once cool. Defrost, then put in a low oven (about 160C/fan140C/gas 3) for a few mins to refresh. 

My next bake was going to be a Victoria Sandwich, but it didn't really work properly. It came out far too moist, and bits of the top stuck to the tin, so it wasn't going to work like that... How to salvage it? Betty Crocker Vanilla Frosting... I know, I know, it's a bit chavvy, but it tasted good, it was there when I needed it, and it doesn't contain anything we can't eat....

Vanilla Fudge Cake (AKA Disaster sponge!)
175g self-raising flour
1 tsp baking powder
175g caster sugar
175g dairy free marg (I used Pure Olive)
1 tsp vanilla extract
3tsp Orgran egg replacer whisked with 6tbsp water.

Heat the oven to fan 180C.
In a stand mixer, cream together the marg and the sugar. Add the vanilla and baking powder and mix well. Add about 1/3 of the flour and 1/3 egg replacer. Mix well. Add the next third of each. Mix. Add the last bit of flour and egg replacer. Mix well, scraping down the sides to make sure it is all combined.

Pour the mixture evenly between two greased and lined sandwich tins, level out, making a slight well in the middle, to allow the cake to rise evenly. Don't do as I did, don't skimp on lining the tin. I didn't bother, I just sprayed it with cake release. This time, it didn't release! Bake for about 20mins, or until a skewer comes out clean from the middle of the cake. Turn the cakes onto a baking rack once cooked.

Allow the cake to cool thoroughly before icing. I used about 1/3 of the tub in the centre, and the rest on the top and sides. I then shaved some dark chocolate onto the top to make it look prettier.... It didn't look at all like a Victoria Sandwich, but it sure tasted good! I'd make it again like a shot!

My third cake was the minty brownies from Sweet Vegan. They were great... I didn't do a buttercream icing, I made a green water icing with a little peppermint essence. I added to much green though, and then look a bit too bright! They seemed to get brighter by the minute! I didn't do the chocolate topping either, as I didn't have any suitable chocolate. They still tasted yummy though, and I would recommend them.

Thar she sews!

A stitch in time saves...

Well, certainly not money if I keep buying fabric like this! I follow a blog called Boy, Oh Boy, Oh Boy! who do a monthly sew-along, on a boy theme. All the patterns come from a book called Sewing for boys. It's a lovely book, with some real variety of patterns. I can see myself making a lot of them.

I've watched other people post month by month, with wonderful items of clothing made for their little boys, and always felt a little bit too novice to take part. I love to sew, and tend to do a lot in the summer - the winter seems more appropriate for knitting!

Be brave

I decided that enough was enough. After all, what did I have to lose? Niblet ends up with a nice piece of clothing, and I get to share it with other people. This month's sew-along was the Luka Hoodie, which is a great little hooded jumper. The only downside is that the smallest size is age 2 -3... Niblet is 10 months, so it won't fit him for a while! Hey, nothing like getting ahead!

I really enjoyed sewing the hoodie - the cutting took one evening, and then the sewing itself was probably about 5 or 6 hours, broken up over a week or so. I even did my own covered buttons (which I've never done before!)

One thing that I struggled with was the final joining the lining to the outer - it was like a crazy piece of origami, and somewhere I managed to get a twist or six into it. I ended up unpicking the ends of the sleeves where the two where joined, untwisting, repinning and resewing. Realistically, it took me longer than any other stage in the pattern. There were some parts that I felt were somewhat badly worded, and took a long time, and several readings to work out, but it is an advanced pattern, so I'm chuffed that I finished it with only one problem area.

As part of the sew-along, you have to create an embellishment, or change the pattern somehow to personalise it. I had found this amazing elephant fabric, and decided that what it needed was a little felt elephant in the secret pocket. When I was a little girl, I had a lovely Clothkits jacket, which had lots and lots of pockets. Each of the pockets contained a little stuffed animal, and that jacket kept me entertained for hours on end. I wish I still had it! It was a lovely grey and black jacket, with (I think) a bright red lining. I know that my Mum spent hours working on it, and felt really special to have it.

So, here it is. My Luka Hoodie, age 2 - 3, on my ten month old! I love it, and am really glad I took the plunge! Note the cat, helping the photoshoot, and the sleeves, that were about 3 times the length that he needs at the moment!

Baby messy play and messy meals!

I feel like a washing woman!

Niblet really seems to have found his appetite at the moment, and is making the most of the wheat - he ate THREE baby weetabix this morning - the serving suggestion is for one!  He then had quarter of an apple - making the most of his newly sprouted bottom teeth.

For lunch, we had seeded wraps, with ham and salad. He had some of the Redwood Cheezly Soya Free, which he seemed to enjoy. I tried a bit, and couldn't get past the chemically flavour that it had. I've yet to try it heated though, so I'm hoping the flavour might improve! It looks and feels like a Cheshire cheese, rather then a Cheddar. Coming from an area of Devon renowned for it's Cheddar, I might be a little picky!

For supper, following on for the wheat fest, we had lamb and mint burgers from our local butchers. They are lovely, but have rusk in them, so we haven't been able to eat them for months.

But what does all this have to do with washing, I hear you cry?! Well, the mess... his eating goes everywhere, in every inch of his body, in every crevice of the highchair and the table, on the carpet, the cushions and probably on the light fittings if he could reach... He doesn't mean to, but it just goes everywhere in his enthusiasm...I should buy shares in Persil for all the washing I have to do! (Not to mention the fact that we are using real nappies, so are having to wash them too!)

Messy Messy Messy

I decided that as I had so much washing to do, I should just make some more! I wanted to do some messy play with Niblet, and have seen some great ideas online. My favourite at the moment are some of these:

These great ideas come from Growing a Jeweled Rose, which is a blog about messy play, and ways to make it more approachable... My favourite of her ideas is doing messy play in the bath or sink, to reduce tidying up... so simple, yet so effective - it made it much easier to do messy play, and helps me to be less reluctant about it. Her website is: http://www.growingajeweledrose.com/

One of my other favourite sites is The Imagination Tree, which is about more than just messy play. It covers all sorts of things to do with your little one, from arts and crafts, through to sensory play and discovery boxes / treasure baskets. It's another of those sites that you read, and wonder how on earth she finds so many amazing ideas whilst being a Mummy. Her website is: http://www.theimaginationtree.com/

One idea that keeps popping up online is making goop, gloop, sludge, whatever you want to call it, the mixture of cornflour and water (with colouring sometimes added). It makes use of the fixatropic nature of cornflour, allowing it to appear solid when prodded, rolled or poked, and then liquid afterwards. It's a great substance, but not so great when your baby has a corn allergy. I ummed and ahhhed for a while about what I could use instead... My original idea was rice flour, but they I thought that might be too grainy, and not smooth enough. So, I looked in my cupboard and spotted the potato flour... It has the same texture, so I thought it might react in the same way... I was right! It did! It was great....

 In a nice big bubbly sink, discovering the tap, and learning how it works!

 Yum! What's this gooey pink stuff? Shall I eat it? I know I've just had my lunch Mummy, but I still want more....

 Now, if I put the whole bowl into the sink, and add bubbles, how does it taste? Hmm. Pink. What about if I add the sieve to the mix?








Niblet did spend most of the time trying his best to eat it, but he also really enjoyed grabbing handfuls of it, and watching it run away again. I'm so glad I found a corn free alternative to make gloop!

Two steps forward, one step backward

Right now, it feels like that one step is huge, but never mind, we'll get to that.

We've been away again, which is why I'm slacking on the old blog posts. Sorry about that! Not that anyone other than me reads the blog yet anyway, so I guess no-one will notice! We've been up to visit the inlaws, who live in Wrexham, North Wales... I like to tease them that they are Welsh, but they protest that they were all born in and around Chester, in England!

It was lovely for Niblet to see his grandparents, and his great-grandparents. I don't have any grandparents left myself, so for my husband to have three is quite astounding! Niblet loved it - he loves to be made a fuss of and to play with new toys. He was a little daunted at times - when there were people walking towards him that he didn't know (or that he didn't like the look of), he just sat down wherever he was, and refused to move!


One step forward...

He's into everything though, and is getting really good at walking - it will be nice when he can do it unaided, although it will mean that I need to do some major de-cluttering! He's a bright little button too - he worked out how to undo a wooden bolt to get into a cupboard, and then worked out how to take out a wooden spoon that we had been using to jam the handles of another cupboard shut to stop him getting to it! I think the time has come to baby-proof!

We did put some corner protectors onto our side table, but he pulled them right off! He also used them as a teething toy! Funny, isn't it, how you can buy any number of proper teethers, and all he wants is the edge of a table, or whatever trousers I happen to be wearing!



Two steps forward...

We saw the gastroentirologist locally again. He was much more civil this time, and seemed even to be human. I think it helped having my husband with me, and being able to say that we had tried his suggestions (even if we don't like them). He seemed more open to discussing options with us, rather then just making me feel like a bad mother. It's funny, isn't it? When the so-called professionals aren't willing / able to find what is wrong with your baby, instead of sending you to someone who can, they belittle you, and make you feel that it is your fault?! Sorry, rant over.

Anyway... Niblet has put on weight - he now weighs 9.1kg (20lbs) which puts him back at the 50th centile for weight - he's not been there since he was nine weeks old... It's taken us a whopping 35 weeks!  Still, he's so much happier now, that I don't mind how long it has taken.

We discussed tests that had been run on Niblet, and we realise that he has never been tested for Coeliac, even though it seems the most obvious solution when there is a gluten intolerance. I'm not convinced it is that, but at least they are finally rethinking things, and trying things to improve his life. So, in preparation for testing, we need to re-introduce wheat and gluten, for the next 1 - 3 months. He'll be tested sooner if he is symptomatic, longer if he is not. I'm scared to do it, but oh so enjoying the bread.

Bread. MMM. BREAD! It's amazing, where have you been for the past 7 months? Oh how I have missed you. Sandwiches are back on the menu, Niblet gets to try Weetabix for the first time. Catering just got easier. My baking is now only vegan, not wheat free too. So why am I still so worried about it all?

Last time we introduced wheat to him, in a bid to re-introduce elimination diet foods, within one week he was miserable, two and he refused to feed at all. He was awful, and really hard work. He wouldn't eat, sleep, or be himself. He was clearly in a lot of discomfort, and I don't want to put him through that again. If it weren't for the fact that this is a means to an end, and maybe a diagnosis, I'm not sure I would reintroduce it yet.

We started back on wheat on Thursday. Today he's got much looser stools, and he didn't want any liquids or solids all day. He ate supper, but didn't have his bed time feed. It will be interesting to see what the next few days bring, but hey, a potential diagnosis? That's a step forward, right?

And one step back....

I found out tonight that my big brother has testicular cancer.

He's the healthy one of the family, he's the protector, the wild one that always wins out. He's got a new wife, and they've not got a baby on the way. He can't have cancer. It's just not fair.

I feel lost, and so useless. I don't know how I can help support them, what I can do to make sure he wins this battle too.

They live three hours away from me, near where the rest of my family live. These days, we're the only ones left in our birth-town!

He goes in on Thursday to have the testicle removed, and then he has recovery, before having to have a full body CT scan to check whether it has spread. He'll then need to get some sperm frozen so he can have more children, before having chemo to make sure that it has all gone.

I'm in shock. I saw him a week ago, and they were doing great. I wonder if they knew then? It must be so hard to be planning for your family's future whilst not knowing your own.

Please, do me a favour. Check your balls, or your partner's. Find out whilst it is still small, and there is still a good chance of doing something about it.

Busy, Busy, Busy....

Sorry, we've been away for the weekend. We went to see my brother and his wife in Southampton, and had a lovely time.

We went a bit foodie, and a bit crafty! On Saturday, we went to various shops to sort bits out, and I went for a drive in my brother's kit car... I thought I would be scared, but no! It was amazing! I wanted to go again.... in fact, can I have one?!!!

Jam and Jerusalem

We went to the pick your own too, which was great fun... We picked lots of raspberries, and some tayberries, which she made into jam. She is the ultimate domestic goddess - 6 months pregnant, a house being renovated, and still able to bake, cook and make jam on a Saturday. I envy her the multi-tasking ability. She also made us feel totally at home, and so welcome.

On Saturday night, I made a bench cushion for them, using fabric that she had been given - a lovely floral fabric that was already wadded lightly - I think it was a quilt top that someone had lovingly sewn, then given to a charity shop. It's nice to see it have a new life. Her sewing machine made me chuckle - it was made in 1979... it is older than I am! She was given it last year for her 30th birthday, and I think she is in love with it! It has orange floral top, and looks very retro! Amazingly, it is very similar to my machine, although it did struggle with sewing through the many layers of the quilt top!

Foodie Heaven

On Sunday morning, we went to Winchester Farmer's market, which was amazing. It was interesting to look at all the different foods (and to allow my husband to eat some things that he isn't getting at the moment!) We ate breakfast there - I had pulled duck with salad (I know, hardly breakfast food, but oh so tasty!) Niblet was in the sling on my front, and was determined to help me eat it... somehow I ended up with duck down my bra! Who said that life as a mother wasn't glamorous!!!

We bought a knuckle of pork - for a bargain price of £1.50! I couldn't believe it... It was free range pork too! I wish we had got more of them because they were such a good price. I used that for supper last night and again tonight... not bad... 5 portions of food for £1.50 worth of meat!

Two Day Farmer's Market Gammon

1 pork knuckle
1 onion, cut into 8 wedges
6 black peppercorns
3 fresh bay leaves, screwed up to release the flavour!
1/2 tbsp smoked sweet paprika - not the hot one!
1/2 tsp English mustard powder
3 cloves

Put the pork knuckle in a pan with the rest of the ingredients and add enough water to cover the pork. Bring to the boil, and cook for about 30 minutes. Meanwhile, heat the oven to 180C.  I put some potatoes on to par cook as wedges, and chucked them in a roasting tin, with some dried mixed herbs. Put the pork onto the potatoes (or just into a roasting pan) and score the skin. You can take off the skin, leaving the fat, and add some honey or marmalade as a glaze.

Put the tin in the oven, and cook for about 30 minutes (until the potatoes are done!) If you have used a glaze, you might want to baste the pork part way through the cooking.

On day 1, I served it with some salad - it was too hot for veggies, but you could do some if you'd prefer.

Don't bin the stock you cooked it in, it's full of flavour! I fished out the peppercorns, bay leaves and the cloves. I took all the meat off the bone, and chucked the leftover meat and the bone into the stock again. This helps to build the flavour. I then put about 1 cup of kidney beans, 1 cup of cannellini beans and 1 cup of black beans in to soak in cold, unsalted water overnight.

In the morning, drain and rinse all the beans. Put these into the pan with the meat, the bone and the oniony stock. Bring it all to the boil, then reduce to a gentle simmer for at least an hour. I did it for about 4 or 5 hours in total, which allowed it to reduce down quite a lot, and for the meat to become really tender. The onions melted into the mix, and helped to thicken it. You could do this in a low oven, on a hob or in a slow cooker.

On day 2, I served this with more wedges (I cooked extra the night before and just reheated them!) I also did carrots and leeks to go with it....

Yummy!

He's a double fatty!

He's done it!

Niblet has now managed to double his birth weight today - I am so pleased. Things have been hard work recently, but since (thanks to some super feeding overnight) he has managed to gain 4oz. In the preceding four days, he gained 5oz, which makes up for the 5oz he lost the previous week!

I'm really glad that he has gained well.

No more weigh ins?

The health visitor has suggested that we are no longer benefiting from the weekly weigh ins - for most babies, by 43 weeks, they would at most be weighed every couple of months. I agree that he doesn't get any bigger for being weighed, but I worry that we will miss him failing to thrive again if we don't keep measuring him. Am I getting too obsessed with his weight? I suppose it won't matter one jot as no-one does anything in reaction to his weight loses anyway. Maybe if we do monthly, we will just see gradual gain, instead of the standard three week cycle of gain, gain, loss.


Better feeding = a better night?

It will be interesting to see, but Niblet fed better and slept better during the day today. This ties in with our normal cycle, it just seems to take such a long time to come around each time. I am shattered. For the past two weeks, we have been on four or five wake ups per night, and a maximum of an hour's sleep during the day. It's not really enough for me to feel rested and relaxed. I am struggling to get back to sleep after the wake ups too - any ideas?

The health visitor offered to help us with some sleep training if we wanted, but didn't think it was a great idea to try to drop the night feeds until we are more certain what is going on. Thank goodness he at least is a sensible man who listens to mums. Every mum I speak to about him says that, so I am not alone in being glad that I agreed to having a male health visitor.

A frugal supper to finish off

Tonight we had a lovely meal - liver with bacon and onions, with carrots and boiled potatoes. It's one of my favourite meals, and is a cheap one too, as there is often reduced price liver (as no-one else seems to appreciate offal!)

Oh, and to make my day...
The health visitor said that he really liked the chocolate cake, which has got even better today - the flavour has improved a lot since the first day...It's like a ginger cake that just needs time to mellow... yum. There's none left now though!

It gets better, people! It gets better!

Day three of the cake

Wow. I thought it was good when I first made it. Then it was light and spongy, and fluffy cake with rich icing. Now three days in, and it is fudgy, and rich, gudgy and almost brownie-esque!

I am officially in love with yet another of Elizabeth Gordon's recipes...

Here it is for you all:

German Chocolate Cake (Taken from Allergy Free Deserts)

4oz free-from chocolate, chopped (I used dark, she says semi-sweet)
1 cup rice milk
1tsp cider vinegar
6 tbsp water
2 tbsp ground flaxseed
2 1/2 cups gluten free plain flour (she gives a special mix to use, which is in the book)
1 tsp bicarbonate of soda
1 tsp xanthum gum
1/2 tsp baking powder
1/2 tsp salt (I left this out)
1 1/2 cups granulated sugar
2/3 cup organic palm fruit oil shortening (I used Trex)
1 tsp vanilla extract

Preheat the oven to 350F. Grease and line two 9 inch round cake tins. Melt the chocolate in a double boiler (or carefully use the microwave like I did!) Set aside to cool.

Make the buttermilk by mixing the milk and vinegar. In another bowl, mix the flaxseed and water. Leave to stand for 3 to 5 minutes.

In a stand mixer, cream the Trex until fluffy. Add the flour, baking powder, bicarb, xanthum gum, salt and sugar. Add 3/4 cup of the buttermilk mix. Mix until the batter is moistened. Add the chocolate, the flaxseed mix and the rest of the buttermilk. Beat the batter for 2 mins, scraping down the sides (and checking the bottom of the bowl).

Pour the batter into the tins, and bake for about 35 to 40 mins, until a toothpick comes out clean. Allow to cool in the tins on a cooling rack. Turn the cakes out and ice (if you are sure they are cool... double check. Don't do what I did and end up with melted icing!)

MMMM chocolate cake...

My fingers are sticky

The keyboard is sticky. The table is sticky. The knife is covered in smears of chocolate fudge. I can feel the sugar sticking to my teeth. Yum.

I made chocolate cake. It is nearly 8 inches tall. I have never managed to make a cake that tall, free from or otherwise! I am well chuffed. It was gooooood.

The recipe is another one from Allergy Free Deserts (German Chocolate Cake). I will try to post the recipe tomorrow. I would make one big change next time - the only chocolate flavour comes from 14oz melted chocolate, which to my taste buds is not enough. There is still a strong chemically flavour, which I think comes from the Trex that I used instead of the Hard Palm Oil. It makes a great substitute though, and is easily purchased in the supermarket.

Next time, I would sub 1/4 cup of the flour for 1/4 cup of cocoa, and see how it turns out. It looks impressive though, even if the taste is nearly there...

When she says to let it cool before icing, she really does mean completely.... not just cool to touch on the outside. My icing is now a pool of gudge. Oops.

What a week!

Well, that week's been, ummm, interesting!

On Saturday night, we went out to a friend's silver wedding celebrations, and had a marvellous time. We had a lovely meal, although even though the restaurant knew our dietary issues in advance, every course had to be sent back at least twice for things to be changed! I'm not sure if we ate something that we shouldn't have - we tried so hard.

On Sunday, Niblet started to refuse all feeds and on Monday refused both feeds and solids. When we took him to our normal weekly baby clinic, he had lost 5ox. That morning, we also got blood in a stool from him. Our health visitor told us to take him to the hospital to get checked over, so we did. We waited so long in casualty, it was awful. Thankfully my friend and her 6 month old baby came with us to keep us company. Eventually they decided to admit him again, to keep an eye on what was going on. Then the consultant on duty came to see us. She wasn't one we had met before, although she was lovely, and she decided to send us home, s they weren't going to do anything overnight anyway.

We went home, and on Tuesday, he ate one feed. Not much, but an improvement. Each day he is taking more breast feeds, and more solids. Today he did well, he still hasn't taken many daytime feeds, but at three pancakes for breakfast, a hot dog and some veggies for lunch (a yummy, rare breed one, which was free from...) and then THREE bowls of pasta with creamy veggie and bacon sauce. To top that off, he then ate 1 1/2 flapjacks too... talk about a change!

And the experts say....

Well, to be honest, they don't say much. Our paediatrician is lovely, but realistically has no idea what is going on, and just keeps trying to reassure me that he is fine, and will grow out of it. I don't know when I should start believing that. We went for his 6 week check up today, and he IS actually plodding along, better than I expected. He is still between the 25th and 50th centile for weight, on the 75th for height and on the 91st for head circumference.

Developmentally, he is doing well. He is just about walking (can do about 4 paces on his own), is cruising round furniture, has a good pincer grip and babbles, like he is discussing things with you! I'm relieved about that, at least.

She is happy to refer us to Bristol Children's Hopsital, for a second opinion, although doesn't think they will suggest anything new. We still have no diagnosis, just a suggestion from St Thomas' that it is EGID. The Gastro-consultant in Exeter said he thinks it is a 'non-IGE mediated food sensitive enteropathy.' Catchy, huh?!

From what I can understand, that just means things get worse when he eats something he reacts to.... to me, that sounds less a diagnosis, and more a description....

Anyway, she wants us to hold off trying to re-introduce any of the foods that we have cut out until after his 1st birthday, and to increase his anti-histamine medication (Alimemazine), to try to reduce allergic reactions, and to try to help him sleep better at night. I don't mind that he still wakes and feeds. Don't get me wrong, I'd love to have a full night's sleep, but if he needs to wake and feed, then he needs to. I'm really worried that making him sleep more will mean he eats less, and then stops gaining so much weight. Only time will tell, I guess.

We've given it a try tonight - double the previous dose, but still half what the gastro-idiot consultant wanted to give him (when he suggested sedating him overnight, and tube feeding him Neocate....) At least he has gone to bed on a nice big tea, so he should have the energy he needs to see him through most of the night.

Fridge Tidy Pasta

In our house, this is known as fridge tidy pasta, or 'If It's Pasta' meaning 'If It's in the fridge, we'll use it up!'

For two adults and one baby with a big appetite!

200g gluten free pasta
2 cloves garlic, minced / crushed
1 white onion, diced
2 sticks celery, diced
3 rashers bacon, in pieces
(I really want to do 4 of something now!)
1 aubergine, diced
1 courgette, diced
(And any other veg that need using up, like peas, broccoli is nice here too, in small florets)
Water
Dried tarragon and dried basil, ground black pepper
1 tbsp oat cream
1 tbsp rice flour

Fry the garlic, onion and celery until it starts to soften. Add the bacon, and fry until cooked. Add the rest of the vegetables, and fry off for a few minutes.

Put the pasta on to boil. Put a timer on. Don't do what I did and end up with overcooked pasta.

Add a slosh of water to the vegetables, to help them cook properly. When the veg are softened, take a stick blender, and blend about 1/4 sauce. This will help thicken it. Add the dried herbs and the black pepper. Cook for a minute or two (depending on how long your pasta has left!)

Mix the rice flour with some water to make a paste, and pour this into the boiling sauce, stirring all the time to avoid lumps. When this has boiled and thickened, add the oat cream.

Your timer should be going off about now. If you forgot to set it, try your pasta. If you can smear it across the worktop, it is overcooked. If it is still crunchy, it needs longer. If it is about right, drain it.

Add the drained pasta to the sauce, stir well and serve.

If you are making this for grown ups only, and no babies, you might want to add some salt to the pasta water, and to the sauce.

Something good amidst the frustration

I am getting so frustrated about my diet at the moment. I miss all my favourite foods. I know that I need to change my mindset, and start embracing the new way of eating, but it's just so hard.


It's just not fair.


We went to a local market today, and there was a lovely smelling (and looking) food fair too. My husband succumbed to the 'All you can drink gravy' from the Dumpling man that was there, and it looked so good. I just kept borrowing the tub so that I could have a smell of it, as that is as close to eating it as I was going to get! It was a beef filled dumpling, with peas, gravy, horseradish cream and gherkins.


Watching him eat it was torture. I'm so jealous, and frustrated that he can still eat what he wants, without a care for me, and what I can and can't eat. It's bad enough that he has all these lovely, forbidden foods in the fridge that he can take for lunches at work, but to sit there in front of me and eat it all just seemed so mean...


Hmm. This is turning into too much of a rant, when there have been some really good things going on. Maybe I need a Pollyanna moment, and start thinking about what there is to be glad about.

1. Niblet is slowly but surely gaining weight. He's a much happier chappy. He spends hours of the day giggling. Apparently me getting cross and shouting at Daddy is the pinnacle of funny.
2. I've lost all of my baby weight, and more besides, without having to go to the gym!
3. I'm eating new things that I would never have tried before, and loving them (mostly) Hello Falafel, where have you been all my life?
4. I'm going to appreciate real food so much when I can eat it again! 

As the dumpling man today said - the food world is a little grey at the moment, but one day I'll get handed a pack of felt tips...


I think I might have been handed a colour or two over the past few days, in the shape of two fantastic cookbooks, both by Elizabeth Gordan. From her book 'Allergy-free Desserts', from which I have fallen madly, head-over-heels in love with her chocolate crinkle cookies.. they are amazing. I added a bar of dark chocolate, and didn't roll them in sugar, and they taste fantastic. They are like the best sort of cookies that you can buy.


The second book that I bought was her 'The complete allergy free comfort foods cookbook'. I made her pop-tart style breakfast things... I can't remember what she called them. I made one fatal error with them. I looked at how much jam she said to put in the middle of each (1 1/2tsp) and thought 'that doesn't look enough'.... it would have been.  I put nearer two desertspoons in... needless to say they are REALLY sweet...That didn't stop me eating two one and a half of them...The pastry is so flaky - the addition of lard really makes it light and lovely. I would never have thought that the pastry was allergy free, but it is!


I might have to try making some of the pastry into gluten free 'croissants' and see what happens....


I sound like an advert for her, don't I?! I'm not, but I've really enjoyed being able to make most things in her books, with very few changes...

It burns! It burns!

It is so hot here, I feel like I am slowly melting.

Look, the sun! It's been so long.

 The temperature hit 28C today, and it is feeling every bit that hot. There isn't a breath of wind to cool you. There is however a rocket lolly. Niblet and I are enjoying the fact that they are on special offer in Sainsbury's at the moment, and there is nothing in them that we can't eat! Result!

He ate a whole one yesterday - he's only nine months, and that's a lot of lolly!

Too hot for porridge.

It really is too hot for porridge. We had run out of bread - well, we have the less than tasty loaves that the Dr prescribed (Ener-G Six Flour Loaf, this one) Does anyone know of a good one that we can get on prescription?

Anyway, we had pancakes recently, and cereal, and granola, and I've run out of new ideas for what to eat for breakfast. It really is a challenge. Before cutting things out, I'd have had toast, or cornflakes, with lashings of melting butter on the toast, dripping down my fingers, and layer of marmite on top, with a lovely cup of tea, with skimmed milk..... yum yum yum... I miss that. I wonder if I'll ever start enjoying gluten free bread with sunflower margarine?

Let them eat cake!
So I thought, what do we both like to eat? Cake.

Niblet will happily eat all his breakfast (3 bowls of rice crispies, with Neocate) and then go back for cake. I wanted to make something that wasn't too sweet, that I could have with a drink for breakfast, with the texture of cake, but without feeling naughty, if you know what I mean.

I settled on cornbread... lovely and soft, giving and nutty. The recipe comes from my new favourite allergy friendly baking book, written by Elizabeth Gordan: Allergy-Free Desserts I swapped the cornflour and the corn meal (3/4 cup and 1/4 cup) for 1 cup of chickpea flour (gram flour). It meant that it kept the yellow colour, and the nutty taste that the corn would give it, but was something we could eat. We cut it into squares, which we ate warm with lashings of raspberry jam. I meant to take a photo, but in all honesty, I was too busy eating it, and stopping Niblet from spreading the jam all the way across the garden (we had an outside picnic!)

It is one to make again, but I would make some tweaks to it - I would probably add some cinnamon, and some mixed spice, a handful of dried fruit, and maybe some seeds (I'm thinking the crunch of pumpkin with some sesame and sunflower seeds, mixed with demerara sugar and sprinkled on the top)...

A life begins without.

In the beginning, was the post.
I never know how to start a first blog post. Do I assume that there is no-one listening, and start winter batting to myself? Do I assume that you will all one day, want to read my first great missive? The one that started it all?

Well, let me start by introducing myself. I'm a part-time teacher and part-time Mum. I've just finished a 37 week stint at home with my baby boy, which I loved more than I ever thought possible. I'm now on the summer holidays and going back prt time in September, after 3 weeks full time, which was really hard work.

Boy, oh boy! What's happening to you?
My little man started life well, being born on time, weighing 9lb 10oz, putting him on the 97th centile! Then at 4 weeks, he stopped gaining weight, and it was found that he had a tongue tie. This was cut at seven weeks, and we then were hospitalised because he refused point blank to feed at all.

He started to receive treatment for reflux, as he also vomited all of the time. Later we started to get bowel problems. He was re-admitted, on average, every three weeks, as he had the same problems again. We were getting no-where, and in desperation, a friend suggested cutting out dairy and soya, which, under the dr's supervision, we did. We saw a huge improvement in him. He was no longer screaming all day, every day. He started to be the happy boy that I knew and loved.

All better now! Right?
But he wasn't sorted. We had more refusals, more admissions and more weight problems. He has now dropped to the 20th centile. With the dietician, we tried an elimination diet, for both him and me (as I was still breast feeding him). It was hard work. We cut out dairy and soya still, but also nuts, eggs and wheat / gluten. We saw a huge difference in him.

Then we started to see more usual allergic reactions (blistered mouth, hives, puffiness in his face) to bananas, tomatoes and strawberries. We cut those, and things settled for a while.

We saw a specialist allergy peadiatrician in St Thomas' hospital, who suggested it could be EGID, more specifically eosinophilic oesophogitis (ee or eo for short). He referred us to another specialist back in May, and we have been waiting ever since. Our local hospital have given up trying to find a cause, or investigate, and we are struggling without any help.

No more, please.
Since then, he has also become allergic to coconut, fish and shellfish. We also have issues with beef and corn, although these are intolerances, rather than allergies.

Anyway, this blog is a sounding board for me, as I am sure my friends and family are fed up of hearing about it all. It's also going to be a place where I post recipes and meal ideas, things that worked, and things that didn't. I hope that one day, it can help another family who are going through the same as us.